The Princess and the Toad

 Once upon a time- there was a princess who was confused about her future. She didn't know which prince to choose, or which frog to kiss. Because of this confusion she was trapped by this nasty evil toad, who was pretending to be a frog so that he could capture the most beautiful princess in the land. 
You see, this toad had gone to an evil witch, and the witch had given him a spell. This spell was used to trick the princess into seeing him as the most handsome, most majestic, most powerful, most muscular, and definitely most eligible bachelor of all. The toad took the spell and  without reading the warning label drank it down. However, that warning label said that if the toad were to find a princess and not marry her before the spell ran out then he would turn back into a toad and never be able to find love again, and that if he ever decided that the princess wasn't good enough for him then the spell would become null as of that point.
So, back to where we were. The toad captured the princess, and made her feel as though she was in love, as though she was the most important person in the world; but, these feelings didn't last long. The toad wasn't ready to get married, he only wanted something temporary so that he could brag to all of his friends that he had captured a princess. He kept the princess around for many months, and she became all but his slave. She learned to cook, and clean, and sew so that she could keep him happy. She made sure to keep her schedule open and available so she was always ready when her toad wanted to see her. She thought that this was the best life she could ever have.
One morning the toad decided that he wanted to try dating and see what other princess were out there. He had decided even though his princess was great he was getting tired of her. He wanted to be single again, to be free to go to the pond and spend time with just the guys. He decided that he was too good for his princess. He had decided that having somebody to take care of him wasn't all that great since he still had his mom and didn't need anybody else. 
Because of these ideas he had decided to tell the princess that he didn't want her any more. He told her that her beauty and thus her value had diminished and that she had become comely as she had replaced her princess dresses with clothes that were better for cleaning and cooking in. He told her he didn't love her any more and that he never really had, he had just wanted a girlfriend at the time and now he didn't so she needed to pack up and leave.
The princess was devastated! Her world was falling apart around her shoulders. She wallowed in her self pity for quite awhile, but finally went and talked to a great adviser of the kingdom.  He told her that none of the things that the toad had said about her were true, that none of them were anything that she should pay attention to. He told her he was beautiful and that in time if she were patient she would find a man that would make her feel beautiful by that actions that he did rather than the things that he got her. He told her that this man would be better than any prince, that he would show her through his actions that he loved her and she would see it every day rather than just being told when she needed to hear it. The adviser told her she just had to be patient and wait and find something else to focus on, however she needed to become happy and improve her skills to be worthy of this man. 
The princess moved away from the kingdom deciding to make her own way out in the world. She decided that she was going to try and find herself and that in finding herself she would find the man of her dreams. She decided not to kiss any more frogs or admire any more princes. She had decided that she was going to have fun and make new friends and try new things and that being a princess was highly overrated. 
So now you ask, how is this princess doing? She is doing fabulously well. No more princes, no more frogs, and definitely no more toads. She was done with that whole thing. She just wanted a down to earth hard working country man who would take care of her and she could take care of him and they would live happily ever after. She had learned her lesson and has grown from it. She is now living with her dog and going to school to be a teacher so that she could teach other people about the dangers out there in the world.

Wahoo!!!

So... you all know the post that I wrote about all the decisions I have made and changes that have taken place?
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Yup well obviously I am not very good at this whole blogging thing because here I am once again sharing all the updates in my life.
Ok... so I got the job of my dreams! I now work as a CNA and due to this experience I have decided that I am not cut out for the medical field. However, don't get too caught up in the assumptions because it is not what you all are thinking. I am not cut out for it because I now see how boring it is to be a nurse, all they ever do is put new bandages on people's bottoms and pass pills. Oh wait... I forget the most important part. It is hard for me becuase I care too much about the people that I get involved with. I have worked as a CNA since February now and have had many residents die due to old age, sickness, or just because they decided that they had had enough. Each and every one of these has hit me like I am losing a part of myself. I become too attached and I have decided that I can't feel like I am being torn apart every time I go to work becuase somebody else's wonderful life is coming to an end.
I love my job as a CNA and will continue to work as one because I find it extremely staisfying but, I have found my true calling in life....... I have decided to become an English teacher!

Why English?
Well because I love English, becuase I am good at English, and because I want to help other people come to love English as well.

Another change that has happened, well I have decided that SUU is not for me and am therefore going down to Dixie to try that out. I have made plans and now all I need to do is to finish applying for financial aid and have my transcripts sent to Dixie so that I don't have to start completely over agian.

Ok everybody :D
Now you know all of my big updates sorry once again for the long blog about me and once again no pictures. I will try to get better.

Decisions... Decisions...

So, I have pretty much decided to change my major. I know, I know, all of you probably think that I am crazy. I have wanted to go into nursing for so long that sometimes even I think that I am crazy. However, with my job now as a CNA I can see that I won't be able to handle being a nurse very well. Its not the blood, or the poop, or the puke even... its that I get too attached to the people that I work with. Since I started working at Kolob I have had one resident moved into the lock down unit and two die. For all three instances I cried :/ so after a really long time to think and make sure that I really would be ok with it I have decided to be an English major. I am going to keep my job at Kolob and continue working as a CNA and until I am 100% for sure that I can live with my decision I am going to do a double major. I love both things and have many things that I could do with both fields so we will see what happens. Wish me luck!

It Was a Success

So I told you all that I was going on a date last night. Well now i am going to tell you what happened. Especially since it was so much fun.
Well we went to Brads (since he had never been there) and had the bronco burger and ate there so that he could get the whole experience. It was good and he has decided that next time he is going to try their Bronco Buster. I told him that he is crazy.
From there we went to go dancing!!!!!! I will now say that i have never.... and i mean NEVER been asked on a date where we went dancing so this was so much fun. We went swing dancing and I will tell you now that there is no better way to learn trust than to go swing dancing with somebody. We were trying to learn new moves that were more elaborate than the ones we both new so we tried. We worked on one where he threw me over his shoulder and i came back around and landed on my feet. This sounds like i just jumped over his shoulder though so just know that I was twisting around his shoulder/body. It was scary but so much fun.
Afterwards when I went to take him home we decided that we weren't ready for the date to end. So we sat in my car and talked for two hours!!! I have not talked to anybody that long in a really long time, especially guys. It was a great date.
We laughed and talked and laughed some more shared stories and got to know each other and maybe next week if nothing comes up between now and then he has asked for a repeat so hopefully that means that he had fun as well.

Date Night!!

I got asked on a date today!!! First date since Chad dumped me. I am somewhat nervous and extremely excited. I met the guy in my Biology and Math classes this semester. Two days ago I got up the courage to give him my phone number and we have been talking ever since. Then today he asked me to go dancing with him.
I don't know how this will go but I am excited and optimistically hopeful.

Whats new?

Well like the title says this post is about what is new... so what is new?
Well Chad is no longer my Chad he decided to move on to bigger and better things
~how am i coping you ask?
well coping has come a long way. At first I was awful he was all I could think about and it made my life miserable. I asked myself WHY? all the time.
In the three months that it has been since he made this decision I have gotten a lot better. I am not completely over him but i still think of him all the time. However, I have hope that things will continue to get better.
Something else that is NEW!!!
I got a calling as the relief society pianist in my singles ward. I have only played once so far but I am loving it!!! I love this calling and my singles ward. I am growing to love the church so much.
Thank you Heavenly Father for this calling and Bishop Barney for extending it to me.
ALSO.......
I GOT A JOB AS A CNA!!! it is down in St. George at Kolob. I love it!!! I love the people that I work with as well as the residents. The only thing I don't like is the commute. This hopefully will be remedied soon however, as Tammy and I are planning on moving down to St. George!!!
And Finally.......................................
my car... my wonderful Nemo.... Nemo is in the shop :(
The story of how poor Nemo got sick and had to go to the mechanic:
Thursday we were doing our usual thing... driving home from a long day at work when all of a sudden we heard this GINORMOUS noise!!! Poor Nemo got hit by a rock. A diesel had flipped a rock up under us. We continued on our way home not thinking anything about it and soon forgot about the whole thing. However, the next morning Nemo was feeling sick and let me know. He was making this loud weird grinding noise. Dad listened to it when we got home from work and even checked poor Nemo out. Nothing could be found so we went on our way. Friday and Saturday were fine but on Sunday on our way home from church Nemo had decided he had had enough and died as we got onto the off ramp by loves. Dad came and towed us home which was pretty traumatizing. Then on Monday Chad (the mechanic) came to diagnose my poor car. It is now at his shop waiting to get a new engine. The rock flipped up from the diesel took out my oil pan and due to that my engine seized up. Nemo is now on his way to recovery.
well thats all that is new for me so now i ask you whats new?