Does my family know that I am struggling with infertility? Yes, to a certain degree. Was I the one that told them? No. I have a wonderful sister who thought it was her job to share information about me to my family. It is due to the information that she shared that I have not felt comfortable discussing in detail my infertility journey with my family.
A quick update since its been quite a while since I last posted. I was married to a wonderful man named Brandon March 7,2015. We have been enjoying life together ever since.
In May of 2016 we decided to come off of birth control and begin our TTC (trying to conceive) journey. We tried 6 months simply not protecting. Then we did 6 months of tracking my cycle through ovulation prediction kits and basal body temperature. All to no avail. Since we hit our year mark we have simply been not protecting once again as both of us felt the need to "heal" from the year of emotional ups and downs. We are currently beginning month 16 of TTC with no success.
As of right now, neither of us have gone to the doctor to talk about infertility. Quite honestly this is because I am literally terrified about what the doctor might say to us. I am afraid that the doctor will say its me, I am afraid that the doctor will say its him, and I am even more afraid that the doctor will tell us there is no reason we can't conceive and we will be one of the couple who fits into the unexplained infertility group. With no plan of action to take other than guess work.
So please if you have any sage words of advice, or you have been through this and know what to expect at your first fertility appointment help me take the mystery out of it as I literally have nobody in my family of fertile myrtles who can help me through this journey.
And yes, I know that this is short, abrupt, to the point, and very little backstory. But when your heart has ached every day for the last 15+ months sometimes short and to the point is all you can handle.
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